I don't have the space for fandom anymore

[tielan]

There's no room for in it for my brain, no space in my schedule for watching, no community to drag me along with them.

And also, I've become resigned to the fact that I will never get stories about the characters that I want. That my interests are not anywhere near the interests of the majority of viewers, and because what counts is eyeballs (or reader pages, or whatever) then the characters I love - or the archetypes I want to see - are not going to appeal to most people.

It's a little demoralising, and makes it hard to write.

Not to mention the state of the world is steadily wearing on us all. Not just the AI (fuck AI) but also the world and all it's harms. All the hopeful stories I had for analogues and spin-offs of our world are presently crumbling while watching Ukraine, Gaza, the authority of the current US Administration, the right-wingers, Christian Nationalism - not to mention all the tech issues.

*sigh*

I can't remember if it was John Green or someone else (might have been Hank Green) who said during the 2020 election process that he was hesitating over starting a new book, because a 2nd Trump administration would create a very different world to one in which 45 only managed one administration. He was, as it turns out, exceedingly prescient on that front.

Comments

[timespirt]

The ship is sinking very quickly. I don't hold out hope that 45/47 will not destroy this country long before he leaves office...if he leaves office.

[kore]

Yeah, I'm starting to think that short of dying, he won't leave at all.

[timespirt]

Sad, isn't it.

:-(

[jenab]

*Hugs*

[lilysea]

That sounds really hard. :(

I hope you get a chance for some fannish stuff that gives you joy at some point.

[kore]

"All the hopeful stories I had for analogues and spin-offs of our world are presently crumbling while watching Ukraine, Gaza, the authority of the current US Administration, the right-wingers, Christian Nationalism - not to mention all the tech issues."

Yeah, that's a huge part of it for me. I just feel frozen a lot of the time. Plus there's all our IRL health crises, and the Trump administration tearing through Medicaid and and....

I also just feel so out of step with fandom. People loved the new Thunderbolts movie!.... which I couldn't stand. Ppl love the new Murderbot show! Which I bounced off completely. (To add insult to injury everyone's talking about how their old Murderbot fics are getting renewed attention. Mine are too ancient and/or suck I guess, lol.) I should just take a break but fandoms been my online home for so long that feels so isolating....idk. it's also my entire social life which even I know is NOT healthy, lolsob.

And trump has only been in power like 154 days?? And so much is already completely wrecked, nationally and globally.

[wpadmirer]

It's definitely a different world, and the Christian Nationalists are desperately doing everything they can to destroy our democracy. It's a fucking nightmare to Americans.

[adafrog]

{{{hugs}}}

[hiddencait]

It has been really REALLY hard lately, but I'm clinging to fandom as hard as I can as much to escape dealing with the hell of the news as anything else. It's not fool proof, of course, but there's not a lot I can do. I mostly read and lurk. Writing has defintiely been HARD lately, but I need that even minor interaction while I'm slogging through the trailer park sequel. Writing completely in a vaccuum kills my motivation FAST.