work, writing, lurgy

[tielan]

Went in to work for the first time in 10 days to get a power cord so I could work from home while I continue to have this lurgy b/c nobody likes that person hacking away in the corner of the office.

Well, I was only going in to get a power cord, but while I was there I figured I could log in and check my mail, and when I checked my mail there were a couple of easy fixes, and once those were done most of the office was in and I could talk to a woman who I needed to speak with in person instead of over the phone...

So I fixed two problems and got the lowdown on another problem and then decided I should probably stop sharing my germs with the office, and packed up to come home. But just as I was leaving, one team leader approached me and was very appreciative of my work, and I had a major moment of imposter syndrome, like HOMG WHAT IF THEY DISCOVER THE TRUTH?!?

Note: I'm not entirely sure what "the truth" is, except that I do the work, they're pretty happy with me, and I leave workplaces with a good impression. So...yay?

Anyway, I note at least two (exceedingly competent) others on my f-list have had significant cases of imposter syndrome which makes me go "what, is it the phase of the moon or the alignment of stars right now?"


Writing is...kind of happening? I have an extension for chocobox and I can stare at a screen without my brain wanting to explode. But the story is wandering wildly in the woods and is not coming to the point. This annoys me, and may or may not annoy my recip. But it annoys me.

GRARGH.

Also, all I want to do is write the final chapter for sedoretu, and then move onto the profic idea that's been eating my brain this last fortnight. Which doesn't help. At all.


The lurgy has let up somewhat, I can (mostly) breathe without hacking to death. I'm cogitating clearly enough to work about 3/4 of a day today, and I can write! But boy, am I tired...

Comments

[umadoshi]

It's good to hear that you're starting to feel better. Yay for breathing!

[tielan]

Breathing. A small but significant thing.

Also: useful.

[colls]

Glad to hear you're starting to feel better. Hopefully the vague sense of 'imposter syndrome' passes as well. I think everyone gets mild cases of it now and then. I never thought to tie it to anything celestial (LOL) but I do think it can be contagious? IDK.

[tielan]

Oh I don't generally attribute things to the celestial except in joke form. It's just that two other people I know - one in the UK one in the US - have explicitly mentioned 'imposter syndrome' in their posts (both of which I read only after I had the moment and tweeted about it) - that whole "it must be going around" thing.

(Actually, another friend in the US seems to have pretty much the same kind of lurgy that I do, and she's getting slowly better, too.)