Oh, don't worry! It's your party; you can cry if you want to. And you're my friend, so you can always blurt and rant to me.
As for hockey -- look; I loved it when I played it. I chose field hockey back in school as my summer sport (badminton for the winter). I am an athlete, but there's something so much more fraught about team sports, which is why I sort of gave up on them. If you play badminton with your body every lesson, there's little to worry about...even less for, say, swimming, which is probably the most individual sport there is. But hockey, footie, volleyball are different because of the interplay and psychological pressure. I think it's likely not you, or not in the way you think? Your skills are unlikely to have diminished, after all. But you don't just play with your body. You (and all of us) play with our heads, too. And they're easily messed with.
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As for hockey -- look; I loved it when I played it. I chose field hockey back in school as my summer sport (badminton for the winter). I am an athlete, but there's something so much more fraught about team sports, which is why I sort of gave up on them. If you play badminton with your body every lesson, there's little to worry about...even less for, say, swimming, which is probably the most individual sport there is. But hockey, footie, volleyball are different because of the interplay and psychological pressure. I think it's likely not you, or not in the way you think? Your skills are unlikely to have diminished, after all. But you don't just play with your body. You (and all of us) play with our heads, too. And they're easily messed with.