well, it's going to be a rough 2nd half of May

[tielan]

B1 tested RAT positive for COVID, went for a PCR yesterday and, yes, she has COVID.

I tested negative yesterday, but was counting on her to do the driving to the nephlet's dedication and so we ended up not going. Mum wanted me to drive the potato salad to the dedication (one hour), drop it off, and drive back. Sorry, mum, no. That's a huge waste of petrol and my time.

Sometimes I forget that my mother's concept of 'marginal resources' does not match mine.

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I played goalie for Team 1: it was a pretty awful game. Two goals for which I was on entirely the wrong foot (one of them got blocked by a back when I could have gotten it and sent back into the fray whereupon someone else hit it in). And one which was me vs. three forwards. I ran out to meet (the only way you can do this) and she got it past me.

And then my back hurt. By the time I got to my game that evening, running was not fun until I warmed up, but it was a game where you get on and off a lot, and so by the third quarter my back was agony. I had to spend the last quarter off. But because I didn't say anything to anyone until that third quarter, people kept sending passes which I could reach when not in pain. I just couldn't reach them that night; I couldn't get in front of my defender, I couldn't move fast enough.

And at the end of the game, I was the only person not to get a single point in the "vote on who played well" card that gets passed around.

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Right now I feel like a drag on everything. Tired and unable to concentrate, useless, fruitless and futile. I know it's the brainweasels and the pain and frustration of life talking, but it's just such a drag.

At moments like these I need positive!me to drag me out of this mire and point out all the things that I can and have done. But there is no positive!me to counteract negative!me; there's just me. And I want to go back to bed.

Incidentally, it's a lovely sunny day outside the house. I don't have much by way of work. But my back (and right knee) kind of hurts. And my sister is moving through the house. Masked, but still.

Although a friend has a theory that you're mostly infectious while you're acquiring the virus; once you test positive, your infectiousness drops. Which is...good? Maybe? Unless I already have it, in which case I've possibly spread it to my permaculture group and my hockey team...

Comments

[scribblemyname]

Hugs!

[copracat]

Brains suck. Hope you stay infection free.

[jenab]

*Hugs*

Brain weasels suck.

[timespirt]

"HUGS" Hope you don't test positive hon. Sorry your sister did.

[velithya]

aiii that sucks :( My understanding is that one is considered infectious for two days prior to a positive diagnosis, so if you were cohabiting maskless for the previous couple of days it might be too late... I guess as a household close contact you'll be daily RATing anyway so I will just cross my fingers!! Good luck for you and I hope B1 recovers quickly.

[eggsbenedict]

Sadly a faint line on a RAT pretty much means you've got it, whereas a negative means you may still have it... good luck with iso, hope either or both of you don't suffer too much. Let me know if there's anything I can do, though I assume you have someone closer that can shop for you and stuff?

And I'm going to suggest you take a painkiller because you seem like the type that forgets that's a thing, occasionally! Hang in there T^T

[beatrice_otter]

She ... she wanted you to drive for two hours (round trip) just to drop off FOOD? And, like, not an entire catered meal, but one side dish?!?!? You're joking, right?

I hope you feel better, both physically and brainweasel wise.

[kore]

I think your positive!me and my positive!me are off in the Bahamas sipping cocktails.

[tielan]

Assholes!

[kore]

Or maybe they're "just running around getting free salads with him on some island" like the Endgame writers thought Bucky shouldn't get to do with Steve (which I have never understood, really. Free salads? Did they mean with tropical fruit?).

[tielan]

I feel like there's a layer to this conversation that I am entirely missing...

[kore]

Oh no, tropical cocktails or whatever reminded me of how weirdly they put "Bucky doesn't deserve eating salads on islands," so I mentally adopted that as living the high life, lol.

[tielan]

I...think I missed that entirely! But then, I haven't followed anything after Endgame.

[kore]

LUCKY YOU

This was right after CW when Bucky is like "Steve I have to be frozen like a side of beef a farmwife just picked up because I am not safe and it's all my fault and I did it" and Steve just stood there like, Hmm, and the audience was like wait what, what about Tony and Wanda and Bruce? and that was the writers' response to people who were upset about Bucky being punished for things he did not choose to do. They thought the innocent person in that movie was WANDA, who didn't mean to blow up those refugees in CW and felt bad about it, completely ignoring her past deeds in AOU when she meant everything she did and didn't feel bad about any of it until like 20 minutes until the end of the movie.

"MCU will break your heart, kid" -- paraphrased Jack Kirby

[adafrog]

{{{hugs}}}