Saturday, May 24th, 2025 01:44 pm
There's no room for in it for my brain, no space in my schedule for watching, no community to drag me along with them.

And also, I've become resigned to the fact that I will never get stories about the characters that I want. That my interests are not anywhere near the interests of the majority of viewers, and because what counts is eyeballs (or reader pages, or whatever) then the characters I love - or the archetypes I want to see - are not going to appeal to most people.

It's a little demoralising, and makes it hard to write.

Not to mention the state of the world is steadily wearing on us all. Not just the AI (fuck AI) but also the world and all it's harms. All the hopeful stories I had for analogues and spin-offs of our world are presently crumbling while watching Ukraine, Gaza, the authority of the current US Administration, the right-wingers, Christian Nationalism - not to mention all the tech issues.

*sigh*

I can't remember if it was John Green or someone else (might have been Hank Green) who said during the 2020 election process that he was hesitating over starting a new book, because a 2nd Trump administration would create a very different world to one in which 45 only managed one administration. He was, as it turns out, exceedingly prescient on that front.
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Sunday, May 25th, 2025 02:44 am (UTC)
The ship is sinking very quickly. I don't hold out hope that 45/47 will not destroy this country long before he leaves office...if he leaves office.
Sunday, May 25th, 2025 02:49 am (UTC)
*Hugs*
Sunday, May 25th, 2025 07:13 am (UTC)
That sounds really hard. :(

I hope you get a chance for some fannish stuff that gives you joy at some point.
Sunday, May 25th, 2025 05:22 pm (UTC)
"All the hopeful stories I had for analogues and spin-offs of our world are presently crumbling while watching Ukraine, Gaza, the authority of the current US Administration, the right-wingers, Christian Nationalism - not to mention all the tech issues."

Yeah, that's a huge part of it for me. I just feel frozen a lot of the time. Plus there's all our IRL health crises, and the Trump administration tearing through Medicaid and and....

I also just feel so out of step with fandom. People loved the new Thunderbolts movie!.... which I couldn't stand. Ppl love the new Murderbot show! Which I bounced off completely. (To add insult to injury everyone's talking about how their old Murderbot fics are getting renewed attention. Mine are too ancient and/or suck I guess, lol.) I should just take a break but fandoms been my online home for so long that feels so isolating....idk. it's also my entire social life which even I know is NOT healthy, lolsob.

And trump has only been in power like 154 days?? And so much is already completely wrecked, nationally and globally.
Sunday, May 25th, 2025 05:23 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I'm starting to think that short of dying, he won't leave at all.
Sunday, May 25th, 2025 08:40 pm (UTC)
It's definitely a different world, and the Christian Nationalists are desperately doing everything they can to destroy our democracy. It's a fucking nightmare to Americans.
Sunday, May 25th, 2025 10:09 pm (UTC)
{{{hugs}}}
Monday, May 26th, 2025 04:58 am (UTC)
Sad, isn't it.

:-(
Tuesday, May 27th, 2025 01:11 pm (UTC)
It has been really REALLY hard lately, but I'm clinging to fandom as hard as I can as much to escape dealing with the hell of the news as anything else. It's not fool proof, of course, but there's not a lot I can do. I mostly read and lurk. Writing has defintiely been HARD lately, but I need that even minor interaction while I'm slogging through the trailer park sequel. Writing completely in a vaccuum kills my motivation FAST.
Thursday, May 29th, 2025 05:51 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. I hope you find other things that bring you joy. God knows we all need more joy right now.

I just realized today that it has been at least a week since I have looked at DW. I normally have it as part of my routine, to make sure I don't miss anything from my friends, and it somehow slipped out of my routine without me noticing.
Sunday, June 1st, 2025 11:43 pm (UTC)
No one really likes Vance. I would worry about who would be pulling his strings.

Yeah, Dumpf destroyed this country already.
Monday, June 2nd, 2025 04:02 am (UTC)
Yeah, the activity is on tumblr, but it's really hard to cultivate friendships there. I spend a lot of time on various fannish discords ... but mostly the smaller ones, where you can actually get to know people.
Monday, June 2nd, 2025 10:26 am (UTC)
It is indeed!

I like the new Pope, too.