There's no room for in it for my brain, no space in my schedule for watching, no community to drag me along with them.
And also, I've become resigned to the fact that I will never get stories about the characters that I want. That my interests are not anywhere near the interests of the majority of viewers, and because what counts is eyeballs (or reader pages, or whatever) then the characters I love - or the archetypes I want to see - are not going to appeal to most people.
It's a little demoralising, and makes it hard to write.
Not to mention the state of the world is steadily wearing on us all. Not just the AI (fuck AI) but also the world and all it's harms. All the hopeful stories I had for analogues and spin-offs of our world are presently crumbling while watching Ukraine, Gaza, the authority of the current US Administration, the right-wingers, Christian Nationalism - not to mention all the tech issues.
*sigh*
I can't remember if it was John Green or someone else (might have been Hank Green) who said during the 2020 election process that he was hesitating over starting a new book, because a 2nd Trump administration would create a very different world to one in which 45 only managed one administration. He was, as it turns out, exceedingly prescient on that front.
And also, I've become resigned to the fact that I will never get stories about the characters that I want. That my interests are not anywhere near the interests of the majority of viewers, and because what counts is eyeballs (or reader pages, or whatever) then the characters I love - or the archetypes I want to see - are not going to appeal to most people.
It's a little demoralising, and makes it hard to write.
Not to mention the state of the world is steadily wearing on us all. Not just the AI (fuck AI) but also the world and all it's harms. All the hopeful stories I had for analogues and spin-offs of our world are presently crumbling while watching Ukraine, Gaza, the authority of the current US Administration, the right-wingers, Christian Nationalism - not to mention all the tech issues.
*sigh*
I can't remember if it was John Green or someone else (might have been Hank Green) who said during the 2020 election process that he was hesitating over starting a new book, because a 2nd Trump administration would create a very different world to one in which 45 only managed one administration. He was, as it turns out, exceedingly prescient on that front.
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I hope you get a chance for some fannish stuff that gives you joy at some point.
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Yeah, that's a huge part of it for me. I just feel frozen a lot of the time. Plus there's all our IRL health crises, and the Trump administration tearing through Medicaid and and....
I also just feel so out of step with fandom. People loved the new Thunderbolts movie!.... which I couldn't stand. Ppl love the new Murderbot show! Which I bounced off completely. (To add insult to injury everyone's talking about how their old Murderbot fics are getting renewed attention. Mine are too ancient and/or suck I guess, lol.) I should just take a break but fandoms been my online home for so long that feels so isolating....idk. it's also my entire social life which even I know is NOT healthy, lolsob.
And trump has only been in power like 154 days?? And so much is already completely wrecked, nationally and globally.
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:-(
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I just realized today that it has been at least a week since I have looked at DW. I normally have it as part of my routine, to make sure I don't miss anything from my friends, and it somehow slipped out of my routine without me noticing.
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And yeah, Dumpfs destroyed almost all of the last eighty years of positive US influence in the last four months. It's not pretty.
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I'm just tired. Could be politics, the planet, or perimenopause. Pick one. Pick them all!
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But I'd like to write again. Like, seriously WRITE again...
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Yeah, Dumpf destroyed this country already.
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It's a bit "bread and circuses while Rome burns", tbh. The people I see who are all "ooh, new Marvel movie!" that I know are also "AI is great and not at all destroying our environment!" So not...uh...shall we say...aware? Reliable in that sense?
*sigh*
I'm just "kill people while having a penis and people think you're cool", "save billions, while not having one, and nobody remembers you exist".
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Like Americans watching other Americans be The Worst Version Of American That They Can Be and thinking "these assholes are pissing on our collective reputation".
The new Pope seems to be setting a few things straight, mind. I'm not Catholic, but much respect to him.
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And yeah, writing in a vaccuum is a fast track to "you have written no words today"...
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I haven't been very regular with DW for a while now. My Dwircle doesn't move very fast - a lot of the people I followed were small or medium name fans, and without the bulk of fandom to drive them, there hasn't been much for them to post about. Which is kind of my problem, too.
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I like the new Pope, too.