fanfic I'll never get

I am wanting fic about one of my first fandoms where I actually interacted with other people and made friends. Unfortunately a) it's been 30 years since the first book was published, b) the author discouraged fanfic by saying "I'd rather read your original stories, why don't you write those instead" and the fandom was small enough and fledgling enough that people took it to heart, c) nobody wants to write the pairings/characters that I want to see.

And point c) is basically every fandom I ever joined, only a thousand times worse, because at least the other fandoms where I shipped the 'nobody likes it but you' option had a hundred thousand other fans, and maybe a couple of hundred were 'oh, that's an idea, I like that'.

*sigh*