I don't know if I'm COVID depressed and therefore struggling to get things done, if I have executive dysfunction only on certain things, or if I'm just putting off stuff because I Can't Even.
I have a list of things to do; they're pretty easy things to get done. But they are just not getting done.
It's a very simple list:
[] juice oranges
[] juice lemons
[] juice limes
[] start making peel vinegar
[] cat tree
[] chicken post
[] gardening newsletter
[] pooh bear block
I can do plenty of other things. I have heaps of energy. If I decide to do something, then by golly, I do it. But actually going through a list? Makes it difficult.
This is my brain. Is this my brain on AHD? It might be, but if so I haven't been diagnosed. I can concentrate when there's a deadline or when I really want something done, but my brain does otherwise flit to and from projects.
So, for instance, in the two hours since typing up this post, I have decided to do 'the chicken post' and I am in full flow. But I have stared at that entry for a week and more, trying to get the nous up to do it and...no. I couldn't. Start typing tonight and I might very well finish it before the weekend.
I really don't get my brain.
I have a list of things to do; they're pretty easy things to get done. But they are just not getting done.
It's a very simple list:
[] juice oranges
[] juice lemons
[] juice limes
[] start making peel vinegar
[] cat tree
[] chicken post
[] gardening newsletter
[] pooh bear block
I can do plenty of other things. I have heaps of energy. If I decide to do something, then by golly, I do it. But actually going through a list? Makes it difficult.
This is my brain. Is this my brain on AHD? It might be, but if so I haven't been diagnosed. I can concentrate when there's a deadline or when I really want something done, but my brain does otherwise flit to and from projects.
So, for instance, in the two hours since typing up this post, I have decided to do 'the chicken post' and I am in full flow. But I have stared at that entry for a week and more, trying to get the nous up to do it and...no. I couldn't. Start typing tonight and I might very well finish it before the weekend.
I really don't get my brain.
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