sigh

[tielan]

Add one more to the hundreds of people writing Endgame fixits.

Although I can guarantee that mine will be unique in one character, at least.

Also, the job is ending at the end of next week. Apparently the work that would have meant I and the other contractors got to continue on here is now 'out of scope' which means they don't need us anymore.

So I don't actually have time to write this fixit, I should be writing my saleable romance novel.

*ugly sobbing*

Comments

[scribblemyname]

:hugs:

[tielan]

Thanks, hon.

[kore]

//BIG hugs, tea

I am seeing so many Endgame fixits, and right now, idk. I still feel so sour.

[tielan]

I read a couple and kind of had to stop, because, yeah, so sour.

So this will probably be my hat in the ring.

Actually, I've been debating whether or not to make it Maria/Steve shippy, but...I don't think taking it out is going to really incline anyone to read it, and I like the dimension it adds to Steve's Choice.

[kore]

(STEVE ROGERS WOULD NEVER ABANDON HIS RETURNED FRIENDS ESPECIALLY RIGHT AFTER NAT AND TONY DIED OMFG HE WOULD HAVE SPOILED THAT LITTLE GIRL ROTTEN AND TOLD NATE SO MANY STORIES ABOUT HIS AUNTIE NAT WHO HE WAS NAMED AFTER AND OPENED HIS SUPPORT GROUPS WITH CORNY LINES LIKE "FOR A LONG TIME, I WAS THE MAN OUT OF TIME. I GUESS WE ALL KNOW HOW THAT FEELS NOW" AND HIS SINCERITY WOULD HAVE BEEN A TOTAL CONTRAST TO HIS PAINFUL BADNESS AT IT AT THE BEGINNING, AND SAM WOULD SMILE)

(ahem)

[tielan]

YES, INDEED.

*sigh*

(Is that your headcanon or did you find it somewhere online? B/c I really like it and would like to steal it.)

[kore]

LOL it's mine! Steal away, I would be happy if you took it!

[tielan]

Now I have to work out how to get this into a fic that is entirely from Maria's POV...

Maybe an epilogue.

[kore]

He could invite her along to his support group! LOL. Or it could be an anniversary qualification, something like that. Sometimes people make a special little speech in a support group at 3 months, or 6 months, or a year or two or whatever.

[tielan]

Hon, at the end of the fic I'm thinking of (the point at which Steve is going to make this kind of speech), they're in a relationship. I don't do this Captain Hill shit by halves, lemme tell you.

I kind of feel like any group that Steve ran post-Endgame-where-he-stays would be even more traumatic than the one we saw.

[kore]

CAPTAIN HILL I do love that name, LOL

I know in the movies it's mainly for the sake of a joke, but there is often this weird disconnect where Steve is very inspirational (speeches!) and personally super supportive (Nat! Wanda!) and then he'll go "If you get killed, walk it off" or "If we don't manage to go on maybe Thanos deserved to kill ALL OF US" and I'm just like ooooooh my dude, your damage is showing, Cap. Poor guy.

[kore]

Also, this is one thing where I dunno how good AO3 is for me, altho I love it. I have my idea for my Nat fix-it fic and I can write it, but it feels like most people won't see it and it'll just be totally drowned out because AO3 is unsearchable and the tag system is a mess. And everyone is already linking only to that one very early fix-it fic written by a BNF in about 24 hours anyway. (Not being snotty, they say so in the author's note.) I mean, I typically just write stories because I want them to exist, not for popularity, but at the same time it's hard having "you have little to no audience and make basically no effect" rubbed in my face every time I post something. IDK. //will have some cheese with that whine

[tielan]

That would be Dira's fic, correct? It was a good fic, but, yes, early birds and worms and all that. And, in all honesty, it lacked the emotional punch that I wanted from the fic, even in the Steve-stays-in-Wakanda(-with-Bucky) ending.

Yes, see, you've also confirmed why I would write mine with Maria and Steve/Maria, because that's my niche and what people read me for. Plus it would satisfy my id.

Luckily I'd already written six-people-using-the-stones in other side of infinity, and Maria wielding Mjolnir in Worthy Is In The Heart Of The Wielder. And Maria & Pepper, Maria & Nat, and Maria & Jane...

[kore]

That would be Dira's fic, correct? It was a good fic, but, yes, early birds and worms and all that. And, in all honesty, it lacked the emotional punch that I wanted from the fic, even in the Steve-stays-in-Wakanda(-with-Bucky) ending.

Yeah, it's not badfic by any means, but....it's already been recommended to me earnestly as "the perfect Endgame fix-it fic" by four or five people the same way people used to earnestly recommend Not Easily Conquered ("You like Steve/Peggy!") or This You Protect ("You like Steve/Bucky!") and I'm just like, that is so not my thing. Not what I'm looking for. And it is just what other people are looking for, which is fine! Cool even! And if it weren't so FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE to find what I do want on AO3, or if people recced more like they did back on LJ, I really wouldn't care.

Yes, see, you've also confirmed why I would write mine with Maria and Steve/Maria, because that's my niche and what people read me for. Plus it would satisfy my id.

Yes! If you have a niche and it also makes you happy, why fucking not. I don't buy the "popular fanfic goes by the law of the Claw" thing (LOL no) but IMHO fics written with an eye to popularity and not much else (usually mundane AUs) just fall flat. And occasionally I can tell that even I get a reader who goes through the backlog of my stuff and likes it all and might even leave a comment saying so, and that's a lovely feeling I wouldn't trade for the 100s-of-kudos-in-one-day thing okay I might like that feeling once, LOL. But I'm just like, you know, I do remember a culture when people didn't all just rec only one fic for a particular thing and it was that over and over. Or maybe they did, but I could either find recs or search the fics myself for what I wanted.

And I like AO3. In theory it's a great idea. In practice I think they somehow need to rebuild the code from the ground up and fix the tagging and search (I know, they just worked on it, it's still bad) and not have the only metrics that work be sort by popularity. Because if someone writes an early enough fic and they have a big enough network and it gets like this critical mass of kudos/comments/bookmarks, it's just like an Amazon.com bestseller list except for fics, and that's not what I want out of an archive. (It's really arguable whether it's an archive, technically, anyway, because archives are managed by archivists who index and manage collections and help people find stuff and the donations can't be edited or deleted and blah blah bleeeeeeeeeee this has now turned into my "I love AO3 BUT" rant

[tielan]

Hey, I love AO3, but...

Secondary pairings and secondary characters, kudos behemoths in megafandoms and megapairings that make it difficult to find anything that's good but not OMGWTFBBQBRILLIANT, tags-by-reccers vs tags-by-authors, and, oh, ALL THE THINGS.

[kore]

We all love AO3! BUT.

Really, if they'd just taken the idea of only four or five characters or only four or five pairings like on FFnet, it would be so much more manageable. But then there's the "No, everyone must TAG HOW THEY FEEL, no one must be restrained!" philosophy. Sometimes it's hard to tell what is bad coding, and what is philosophy getting expressed as bad practices, or how the bad coding and philosophy influence each other.